Mind, where have you been?

I'll find you soon

You've been hacked :D

So, I'm laying in my bed right now talking to you on the phone, You don't know that I hacked your blog yet, but I'm going to tell you in like 2.5 seconds. You're asking me for pictures and I'm telling you to hold on.

Since I know that you're about to start using this blog again to start writing, I wanted you to be able to smile when you logged in and be a happy penguin :D

You're amazing baby, Don't change. Mkayyyy?


[ily]


kay, bye.

Life is never meant to be easy

Well I haven't blogged in awhile, but I want to start again..my journal is running out of paper lol.

Well I have been threw quite a bit this past month or so...I can say now that its making me stronger, but a few weeks ago I would have laughed in the face of anyone who would tell me it gets better. I was stuck in a deep dark well with now way out and no sign of any light to be seen. I'm not out of that well, Im being pulled back in whenever I get to were I can see some light again. I have alot have to work on with myself, and I know its going to be a long time before I can get to the point of being really alright, now im just glad if I make it threw the day without getting depressed. While I was gone I met alot af great people and alot of shitty people, but thats life. The ladies that I did meet and got close with I wont ever forget. They encouraged me in their own little ways.

I can honestly say that their is one person that sticks out from everyone else. Lindsey Blair, she opened my eyes and brought me back to reality. Having someone tell you to stop being a "selfish bitch" when your on the verge of killing yourself, well for me I was shocked and scared...no one had ever said that to me and Im so glad she did. It really shows me how much she cares, to be that honest and tell me how it is, it means alot to me.

I'am doing better than the last times I was away, and im pretty confident that im going to defeat my demons this time around. Though I still have my days where my thoughts over come me.




ill add more when i have time.

=] see that? <<<< thats what she makes me do<3

So despite all of my bi-polar posts.

NOW I feel absolutely fantastic.<3 I honestly didn't think I would be happy for a long time, but I guess great things do come to those that wait =] It's weird though, everytime I have a bad break up someone COMPLETLY random comes into my life and lifts me up. It's happened everytime, and it is starting to give me hope. Because let me tell you, It is so crazy how fast I'm liking this girl. It didn't take much for her to make me happy, because all I wanted was someone who was willing to prove they wouldn't hurt me. And I think she is doing a good job of that. Idk how it happened so fast...like their was an instant click between us...and I can feel it. People keep telling me not to rush into anything, but it's so hard when you feel like you have een talking to this person forever already, and know alot about them in a short period of time, feel comfortable telling them things.


I have been threw alot these past 6 months. And I'm really hoping this stays awhile, because I would love to see where this will go, though I already have an idea<3 I can't remember the last time I had butterflies and she gives them to me alot, I get them just by thinking about her while I'm at school in class<3 Im ready to move on completely, and I want to explore what this girl has to offer me<3

Cry

Im honestly just going to cry until I feel better, Idk when that will be, but I'm hoping soon...Im breaking down, and all I want is someone to fix my broken heart. I just don't think I'll find that. I'm finally losing hope, and that hurts the most.


Someone come find me?

15 months!

And I'll have her all to myself. <3

Sometimes, you can't find the words, thats when I turn to music<3